If not now, when?

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“The very least you can do with your life is figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance, but live right in it, under its roof.” ~ b. kingsolver

…as this season reminds us.
Most times I describe my life in chapters: years of caring for my children, now also a grandchild, married vs. happily divorced, evolution of career moves, growing athletic endeavors, pre- and not-quite-post covid, etc.  Often times feeling just like those stories of other artists and writers (raising little ones, single parents, working full-time jobs) fitting creative time in during  lunch hours, trying to get my 3rd or 4th wind on very late nights attempting "just one more thing", or hoping for inspiration on any intentional golden time during weekend's off. It has often felt a distance away, Yet, I realize holding onto a vision, an intention, a hope, even if it has evolved in the chapters,  lead to taking even tiny actions, adding up to a collection of work.  I'm not speaking of scholarly endeavors or climbing a career ladder, these things are very worthy of course, but rather finding something to guide your spirit forward. Nothing is perfect, but all has been meaningful.  Tenacity and passion matter. And a prayer for grace helps too. ~tmb